Things Happen

Everything happens for a reason
People walk into your lives to teach you about yourself
People walk out to show you what you deserve
Things fall apart so better ones can come together
Hard times happen to show you who really cares
People are rude to teach you that you can speak your mind
People are kind to give hope for humanity
You lose something or someone in order to gain something or someone better
We make mistakes to learn from them
People get mad at us to remind us we stood for something
Fun times happen to show you that life can be good
We get lied to to teach us not to trust in anyone but ourselves
People say rude things to ignite the fire inside us to prove them wrong

Believe

This post is going to be based off of the song Believe by Rob Thomas.

Here is the song. It may help to listen to it while you read in order to understand what and how I got this out of it.

This song is one of my favorites and I have listened to it time and time again. Recently when I was listening to it, I got something new out of if I never have before and I wanted to share it. 

The chorus of the song says: "Wait, I don't think we can make it through this world without some faith. When everything is falling through our hands we must believe." This absolutely speaks to me and not just on a religious level but on any kind of level. We must believe in something in order to accomplish anything. Whether you are believing in a higher power, yourself, or others doesn't matter. Having a firm belief in something is concrete in this life. A basic belief everyone needs to have but is hard to come by is the belief in themselves. When we believe in ourselves we are more motivated to do what needs to be done and are more willing to try new things. On a more religious level, believing is huge. If you are a religious person then believing in God is huge. Believing in his existence, his love for you and that he will be there for you though everything even when you feel all alone. When a person has this belief, all things become possible and many many doors open.

Now, back to the more literal meaning of the song. "When everything is falling through our hands we must believe." I love this. When everything seems to be falling apart believing is sometimes all you can do. These are the times when our beliefs are tested. Like I said, this doesn't mean it has to be a religious belief. Sometimes, the belief that you have in yourself needs to be tested. Turning to your beliefs in times like these is what will help get through hard situations where everything seems to be falling to pieces.

Life is full of hardships. When these hardships come, turn TO your beliefs NOT away from them.

Get a Clue

What do you do when someone doesn't get the clue? Let me explain. I have a friend who for some odd reason likes me. I have told him I do not like him and he just doesn't get the clue. He is rather determined which would normally be a great quality to have but in this case its rather irritating. I don't know how much more clear than "I don't have those kind of feelings for you" I can get. He's a good friend of mine and has been for awhile but I just don't have those feelings for him and I never really have. He is on a mission and is under some absurd impression that I am waiting for him to come back to see if a relationship can go anywhere. I am not sure where "I don't have those kind of feelings for you" said "I wanna wait for you to come back from your mission to see if we could have a relationship." He enjoys talking about marriage which scares the crap out of me for when he comes back. I don't want to be running from him. He just doesn't get it! In fact, I have told him I may have feelings for someone else (who ironically is on a mission too.) Where is he getting the idea that I like him?! Men are so complicated. Maybe I should just be a nun.

On a more positive note, fall break is next week and I haven't told many people cause I don't wanna come off like some kind of brat but I can't contain my excitement anymore. I'm going to Florida! More specifically, Universal Studios which includes The Wizarding World of Harry Potter :) Yeah kind of freaking out.

Sitting in the hallway

Class finished early and now I am in the hallway waiting for my next class. I think I'll be here for about half and hour. Its amazing what I have noticed. People are really interesting to watch. There is a classroom in front of me with the door open. The professor just told them to do an activity with the person they are sitting next to. I can see 4 different people. 2 guys and 2 girls. One of the girls is skinny, has long blonde hair with a slight curl, neatly dressed, really tan etc. There is a guy sitting next to her. She does not appear to know him because they were sitting extremely far apart. This guy just kinda looks like your typical what some would call "popular" guy. Football player build, nicely dressed, etc. When the professor called for partners this guy jumped at the opportunity to work with this blonde girl. She seems very full of herself and acts like she is too good for this guy who is basically drooling over her, but flirts shamelessly with him anyway. This was not the case for the other girl. The other girl is curvy (but not huge), her light brown hair is in a ponytail, she isn't as tan as the other girl and doesn't dress as nice at the other girl but she still looks put together. In my opinion, she is very pretty. The guy sitting next to her doesn't appear to know her either because again, there is a lot of space between them. This boy also looks like a typical football player type. When the professor called for partners, he looked at the brown haired girl who was very enthusiastic and seems like a genuinely nice person. She says hi to him and he pretty much blew her off and left her to do the work while he stared at the blonde on the row in front of him.

Why are people like this? I see it all the time and I have yet to figure out why it happens. Yeah the second girl isn't as fit, tan or blonde as the first but that doesn't mean she is worth any less. As I write this I can see the look on her face of almost pure defeat. Its absolutely heartbreaking to see another woman treated like this. Why does this happen? I blame the media. They tell all of the women out there that we need to be tall, blonde, tan and skinny. This is not a reality for all women. 

Men complain about women thinking that they all need to be football player types. This is so not true. But if you want to play that way then we can too. So I say this to the men: women will continue to "expect you to  be a football player type" for as long as you expect women to be Victoria's Secret models. Not every woman will end up looking like a Victoria's Secret model that's just the way it is. Stop drooling over the rude Victoria's Secret model and be a decent person to the nice normal girl right next to you. 

Journey

Today, I was in need of a pick me up or sorts because the manager of my place of employment didn't pay me for a like 31 hours last pay period (thankfully I get it this Friday but that's beside the point.) That with a combination of confusion and trying to get ready for school made my brain kind of have a freak out moment. What was my solution? I listened to Journey

Separate Ways

Pretty much my favorite Journey song ever. 

Open Arms

This song is amazing as well. I totally forgot about it then it popped up on my iPod and its kinda been an addiction since 

Thank you Journey for the pick me up. If only Steve Perry was still your singer (not that I don't like Arnel. Steve Perry is just so much better)

Missionaries, Missionaries, Missionaries

Words don't express my love for missionaries. They take 2 years out of the best time of their lives and go serve God. 

This last week we went to the airport to pick up my Grandma. While we were there we were able to witness several missionary homecomings. It was so much fun to watch the look on the families faces and see the light radiating off the missionaries. 

My cousin came home this week from a mission as well. Today was his homecoming talk and all that. What a change from how he was 2 years ago to now. Hes always been a great guy and all that but he is even more so now. He left with a wonderful spirit and all that but he came home with everything he left with magnified and then some.

I've also got a couple friends on missions. There is one in particular that writes/emails me every week without fail. More than once he has answered prayers and helped me in ways that no one else could. There have been times where I have been going through stuff he didn't even know about and yet he would say stuff that directly related to what was going on and ultimately helped more than he will ever know.

If you have friends that are missionaries and you haven't written them in awhile I encourage you to do so. Missionaries love the encouragement and love hearing from their friends and family back home. They will probably help you in return. These boys that go on missions are giving up a lot and sacrificing some of our time to write them whether its in an email or letter, can make a huge difference. Not to brag or anything like that but there have been times where my letters have helped a missionary in need. They just want to know that they are loved and cared for. They truly appreciate it :)

I am...

A Harry Potter geek

Not afraid to stand up for myself

Obsessed with music

A Star Wars fan

A reality TV watcher

Not perfect

Fairly good at concealing my emotions

As loyal of a friend that you can come by

A Mormon

Someone who sings and dances in their car

An animal lover

A psychology major

Someone who treasures the little things

A dreamer

A person who likes to organize things

Awesome at making cookies

A Colts fan

The type of person who will defend friends and family to the end. Do not do anything to hurt them

Afraid of needles, heights, spiders and bees

A lover of getting dressed up but love wearing comfortable clothes as well

The friend who will listen

That one person on the road who yells at all other drivers when they cant hear me

Someone who will go on drives to unwind

Very blessed

Constantly trying to please people

Fairly sure I know who I am

Sometimes a bit naive

Determined to succeed

My own worst critic

Always relating things to songs

A lover of pointless movies

That person making the funny face in pictures

A junk food addict

But most importantly

I am...

Me

If you don't like my words, don't listen. If you don't like my appearance, don't look. If you don't like my actions, turn your head; It's as simple as that

Harry Potter and Roadtrips

Wow, its been awhile. Last week was the midnight showing of Harry Potter! I'm so sad that is over. My childhood went away with the credits. Not to mention I cried during the movie. If you know me, you know that I NEVER cry. Ever. We were so lucky to have Andrea saving spots in line starting at noon. We got there around 430. The people in line with us were super cool and way fun to talk to. Katie got there around 8 and we went and got ice cream! Thankfully we got let into the theater 3 hours early!  Not to mention we had the best seats in the house AND epic people sitting next to us. I dressed up as Hermione and found a Ron! So, of course we took a picture together.

I was laughing in this picture but for the life of me I cant remember what was so funny. So yeah. There is Hermione and Ron.

Then, a guy dressed up as Snape showed up! You can imagine the excitement when I saw him.

He makes a pretty darn good Snape is you ask me. Loved this guy!

The movie was actually pretty good! There were some things that werent as true to the book as I would have liked but it was still awesome.

The next morning Brenna wanted me to see it with her that night (so I saw it twice in one day haha)

We got bored haha

Yesterday I got back from a road trip! We went to Devils Tower, Mt. Rushmore and Martins Cove. Lots of time in the car and lots of sagebrush but it was fun. Too many pictures to post of that so I'll just post one for now. The rest will be on facebook.

Yes, my hair is in a ponytail. This never happens. Enjoy it while you can

♥



Thank you JK Rowling :)

Today it finally hit me that the Harry Potter stuff is ending next week. Obviously its not ending permanently because I'll still be able to watch the movies whenever I want and read the books when I want but there will be no more. No more new movies or books. Because of this, when this next movie comes out and when the credits are rolling a part of me will be ending and rolling away with the credits. Harry Potter has been a part of my life since it first came out. My dad bought the first book for Christmas the year it came out and he read it to me. I was perfectly capable of reading it on my own but he read it with me. I still remember the funny ways he pronounced some of the names when we were reading. He read the second book to me as well. The third book and forward I read them on my own. When the 7th book came out my dad had to buy two copies because he wanted to read it just as much as I did. I remember being lost in this magical world and just how much I loved this world JK Rowling had created and how into the books I got. The first movie came out when I was 11. The same age as Harry in the first book (and movie.) I remember wondering what it would be like to go to Hogwarts and be friends with Harry, Ron and of course Hermione. When the first movie came out, my dad found that a lot of the names were wrong in the way that he was pronouncing them and for me, that was really funny. Each movie came out when Harry and I were the same age (except this last one.) The second one when I was 12, third when I was 13 and so one and so forth up until these last two. I was 18 when I was part 1 and am now 19 when I will see part 2. Harry Potter is not just a part of my childhood, it IS my childhood. I have an awful memory but I remember when each book came out. I remember reading each book at home and at school. I remember when each movie came out. I know who I have seen each movie with. These past 10 years or so have been so awesome with these books. I dont think JK Rowling fully realized what she had done after the release of the first book. I have found a role model in Hermione and hope one day to be even an ounce like her. Severus Snape was a hero and will continue to be a hero. Never will I forget this series. It will stay with me till the day I die and beyond. Harry Potter will be the bedtime stories for my children and they will see all the movies. The next generation will know Harry Potter and the magical world in which he lives. I will miss this series very much and I guess it didnt register in my head all those years ago that this series would eventually end. After I finished the 7th book for the first time I remember I was very sad about the series ending but knew I had movies to look forward to. The movies are now coming to and end as well. My childhood is ultimately coming to a close. I wish I could thank JK Rowling for the childhood that she gave me. I wish I could thank her for the world she gave me to turn to when I couldnt handle the real world. She and these books ARE my childhood and will forever be a part of me.

"Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home"  -JK Rowling

Zumba?

Kinda wanna try a Zumba class (eventhough I am the most uncoordinated person on the planet) Anyone know where they are taught and how much they are? Dont really need a gym membership at this point cause I just wanna try it and such. Any info would be very much appreciated haha

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Getting our frustrations

1. People need lives. They are not as high and mighty as they think that they are. It drives me crazy when someone decides that just because they have this or that or that they see themselves as more important than other people and they go on major power trips! Not necessary people. I promise you. Get off your high horse.

2. I wish people were more understanding. It drives me insane when someone wont even hear another person out or when they know that persons situation and they don't even care. News flash! You are not the only one out there with problems. There are plenty of people out in this world with problems bigger than you and bigger than them. Its hard to handle sometimes and when you decide to run your mouth and tell that person to "get over it" its frustrating and quite rude.

3. Stop lying. Really? Is lying really necessary? About little things? NO! Get over yourself. If you have done something you know you weren't supposed to then man up and come clean. Lying just digs you deeper and deeper into the issue you have created. If you have done something so terrible you feel the need to lie because you think the person you are lying to is gonna be mad at you then they have every right to yell at you. Again, get off of your high horse.

I really just wish people could be decent but I don't think people are capable of being that way anymore. They twist your words and make you sound like the bad guy, they wont hear you out and when they have one side of a story they take that as truth, and they don't try to understand. ALjglksdjfgslkdfjslkdfjlskdf!!!! Yes I am frustrated with the human population right now. Its just irritating that people cant even be nice to each other anymore or try and understand what another person might be going through. So I say this to the general population of the world, GET OVER YOURSELF! That is all.

Letting Go

Letting go is...hard. Theres no other way to put it. Especially when someone that was important to you leaves your life for one reason or another. Eventually, that person has to be let go of. Whether it is an ex, a family member who has died or a friendship that went sour. Those feelings need to be let go of.

When it comes to ex's, it can be really hard to let go of them depending on how close you were with that person but they left you or you left them for a reason. They need to be let go of regardless because if you hold on to that person then they will become a hindrance while you are looking for the person who you are meant to be with. But forgiving that person is also a huge thing. Holding on to anger is useless. You are hurting no one but yourself. Yes, I realize I need to take my own advice but the truth is, I am not ready to let go of the anger. I really am angry and I have a feeling it will be awhile before I can let go of all of that anger. I do realize it has been awhile since all that crap happened but for some reason I cant seem to let it go or get over it. I'm usually a forgiving and forgetting person but this, this is different for whatever reason. I don't know why it is different but it is and I still have issues with it. I am slowing getting over my anger and feeling betrayed but it will come and I know that it will. Every day it gets easier.

When it comes to a family member or a friend who has died the feelings of sadness need to be let go of. Yes, it is hard and you are allowed to grieve over that person but doing it for a long amount of time is not the best idea. Remembering all the good times is what you need to do. When thinking about that person, don't think about their death and their last few months or days here on this earth. Instead, think about how much you love that person and how much fun you had with them. Happiness is stronger than sadness and letting go of that sadness and replacing it with happiness is what needs to be done. I understand how this can be and I know that it can be really hard to replace sadness with happiness but I promise you that if you can gather the strength to do it life will be a ton happier. But, do not attempt forget this person in their entirety. That will only make the process harder.

When a friendship goes sour its hard not to forget the feelings of anger, frustration and loneliness that accompany that situation. Everyone has had at least one friendship go sour in their lives and when that friendship meant a lot to you its really hard to let go of and get over. When a friendship (or relationship) doesn't work out it is hard to accept at first and saying goodbye to that friend is hard because of all the fun you had with them and how much time you spent with them meant a lot to you but sometimes these relationships don't work out because that person is not what you need or isn't a good person for you to be associated with at the point in your life that you might be. When a friend betrays you its hard not to remember that but again, harboring anger towards that person doesn't do any good. It only hurts you.

Long story short, letting go is hard no matter what needs to be let go of but if you put forth the effort, you will get there and you will be so much happier when you do :)

♥

Random Update

So things in life have been all over the place. Work has been insane (stupid sale that lasts forever!), my Cali family came and visited while dropping of Haley at BYU so it was great to see them. We played with dry ice bubbles! Yeah, so cool. I finally feel like I am falling into place in my singles ward. Yes I still feel a little on the outs because I am one of the younger people in the ward but I have people to hang out with now which makes things a ton better and makes me more willing to participate in activities. Thursday my family is going to the Manti Pageant. I am so excited because its been years since I have been to that and if there is ever a time where I have needed help from above, its now. I'm rather confused as to where I need to go from where I'm at. I know I need to go to school and such and I am doing that. I know I need to be working and I am doing that as well. I just feel like something is missing and I cant quite pinpoint what it might be. Lately I have also been feeling like I need to change who I am in and odd way in order for me to go where I want to in life. But today I got an email from one of my missionary friends and he said and I quote "Be who you are and not who anyone else wants you to be. God made you, not man." Holy crap, I haven't even told him about this. It just kind of came out of the blue. My jaw pretty much dropped when I saw that. I have no doubt that missionaries are inspired even when they are writing letters to friends and family. The funny thing is, this isn't the first time something like this has happened with this same missionary. Gosh I love missionaries :) But I still feel like I need to find my purpose I guess. Its almost like I'm wandering around on a dirt road and the scenery isn't changing at all. Its quite an odd feeling. Well that's it for now. Maybe I'll write something tomorrow. I am addicted to this after all

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Just a Quick Update

I realize I have not done a normal blog entry lately and I apologize for that. I just love doing random things as well because one day, I plan on printing out my blog and I think it'll be fun to see what music I liked at different times in my life and all that so yeah.

Lately I have just been working a lot and I've been shopping a couple of times. I'm so lucky to have found a job in this economy! My boss scares me sometimes but I love the assistant managers and my coworkers. They are very easygoing and fun to talk to and get to know. I've been to Rue 21 and bought some stuff from their sale and went to Victorias Secret and got some stuff there during their sale too. 

I got my Harry Potter tickets! I'm seeing the next Harry Potter at the University Mall at 12:03am :) I'm excited beyond belief!

I'm really hoping I dont have to work tomorrow because my Cali family is visiting! I love them to death and wish I got to see them more often.

Next Thursday I'm going to the Manti Pageant with my family! I havent been for years and I'm really excited for that too. This summer has been really laid back so far which is fine but I wish I had more to do. I have a job and such but when I'm not working I'm usually sitting at home. I think I need more friends haha. Well thats enough of my random and late updating. So, please enjoy this picture of Snape :)

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Napoleon Dynamite

I got curious again and looked to see what the top google searches were for today and I am proud to say that there is hope for our world. In the top 10 (towards the top actuallly) was Napoleon Dynamite.

For those of you who do not know this pointless briliance here is a short video

Its even being made into a TV show on Fox!

And of course, who can forget the infamous dance scene

Top 5 Country Artists

So, whilst on the internet being bored I got curious and decided to see what has been searched most on Google so far this week. I couldnt help but notice most of the searches were country music singers! I was confused then realized that the CMT awards were today haha. Since I have been listening to that kind of music lately and recently got myself some cowboy boots I figured I would highlight my favorite country singers! I know most of you probably dont like country music buuuut you should open your mind because its not as bad as its been made out to be. As long as its not the hardcore stuff about the guys horse dying, his girl leaving him or him getting so drunk he cant remember the next day I'm happy.

5. Luke Bryan

He was on The Celebrity Apprentice a couple seasons ago where Brett Michaels was giving him a makeover and such for his task. After that, he sorta dropped off the face of the earth. Well recently I found him again on iTunes and I am loving what he has released

                                                                             

4. Blake Shelton

You may know him as one of the judges on The Voice. Thats where I first heard of him anyway. So, I looked him up to see if he was any good and I actually like him!

3. Lady Antebellum

Pretty sure you all know who they are. I looove their music so much. I got their album for Christmas or something and I have really enjoyed it. The chemistry they have when they sing together is so amazing and the way their voices sound is absolutely breathtaking.

2. Brad Paisley

Basically, he tied for first with the actual first place one because I love his music like crazy. I cant remember who introduced me to his music but I love it. Has such a distinctive voice and when he sings ballads it just takes you to a whole other place and he tells a story with each song. Love him!

1. Kenny Chesney

Like I said, I had a hard time choosing between Brad Paisley and this guy but man do I love his music. I cant remember who intoduced me to him either but I am addicted to this mans voice. It just has that special quality to it that the music industry is losing. True talent is right here.

Well those are my top 5 country artists. I hope you arent disappointed that Taylor Swift didnt make it in here but lets face it, as great of a song writer as she is and as much as I love her music, when she sings in concert she cant stay on key and its ridiculous.

The music industry has gone so downhill lately that the only true music (no electronic stuff or auto tuning) left is pretty much country music. (And the good ol' 80's rock bands that still put stuff out. Ex: Journey) Its raw, its real and its not a freaking computer doing all the work.

Angry At Men Playlist

So, someone asked me if I could make them an "angry at men" playlist. Sort of like a break up playlist but an angry one. I felt the need to post it cause I am very proud of it. I'll post the whole list but only youtube videos of a few of them

1. Fighter -Christina Aguilera

2. Love Drunk -Boys Like Girls

3. When I'm Gone -Simple Plan

4. So What -Pink

5. Take A Bow -Rihanna

6. Lovin, Touchin Squeezin -Journey

7. Jar of Hearts -Christina Perri

8. Songs Like This -Carrie Underwood

9. Regret It -Mark Ballas

10. Before He Cheats -Carrie Underwood

11. Never Again -Kelly Clarkson

12. I'm Gone, I'm Going -Lesley Roy

13. Goodbye -Kristinia DeBarge

14. Shut Up -Simple Plan

15. Love/Hate Heartbreak -Halestorm

16. I Heard it Through the Grapevine -Marvin Gaye

17. Love Song -Sara Bareilles

18. Bye, Bye, Bye -Nsync

19. When Did Your Heart Go Missing? -Rooney

20. Too Little, Too Late -Jojo

21. Cant Catch Tomorrow -Lostprophets (this song is actually about a chick but it works for guys too)

22. Mean -Taylor Swift

23. King of Anything -Sara Bareilles

24. The Story of Us -Taylor Swift

25. Any Man of Mine -Shania Twain

26. Tell Me Why -Taylor Swift

27. Rolling In The Deep -Adele

28. Your Love is a Lie -Simple Plan

29. Forever & Always -Taylor Swift

30. Its Alright, Its OK -Ashley Tisdale

31. Forget you -Cee Lo Green

32. Since You Been Gone -Kelly Clarkson

Not gonna lie, this is pretty much how I've been feeling lately and ya know what? I like it hahahaha!

Day 30 – A photograph of youself + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

1. I found a job!

2. Turned 19

3. Got to see extended family members and friends I havent seen in forever

Day 29--Something You Are Afraid Of

I know its silly, but I am terrified of these things! I run away from them as fast as I can

Day 28 – Something you could never get tired of doing

Listening to music by far. I just love it. Changes my mood, makes me think and other times its just fun to dance around to. Love listening to music :)

Day 27 – Your favorite movie

You should have seen this coming hahaha

Day 26 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

This is me last year haha. How have I changed? Actually, I dont think I have changed much. My hair is different thats for sure. I guess I have just realized whats really important in life since then

You are ALWAYS Good Enough

So its been awhile since I actually wrote something of some kind of worth so I figured that since I cant fall asleep I'll write something!

This week I was talking to someone and they were telling me that they feel like they never feel good enough for anyone. I myself have been in that position and all I could really think of to say at that moment is you are better than good enough. Everyone is better than good enough its just hard to see it within yourself. I have this problem majorly. Its a hard thing to get over and deal with. Sometimes in situations like that its because you are better than that person or situation. You are always good enough for whatever (or whomever) you are pursuing. When something doesn't work out its because there is something better out there waiting for you. When a boy walks away its usually because they had to in order for you to have the next boy come along that is so much better for you and treats you better. When a job doesn't work out, its because the right job for you is coming along. Usually a job that has exactly what you are looking for and meets your needs and that you enjoy. When a friend walks away its because they were never your friend in the first place. If someone gets over caring for you in a really short time then they never cared at all. 

Something else I want to touch on is the concept of love. Not like romantic love but more like love for your fellow man. I got to thinking about this because I may or may not have been constantly listening to Bon Jovi's song called What Do You Got? this week. The song is about romantic love which is powerful but the lyrics have this line in the chorus "what do you got if you aint got love? whatever you got it just aint enough." Every person needs love in their lives. Regardless of who they are. They could be the most awful person to walk this earth but they even deserve at least one person love them. Sometimes, one person is all that it takes. If everyone tried to show some love towards someone they don't even know it could make their day. This doesn't mean you have to go hug every random person that you see but just smiling at them or saying hi could make a huge difference in that persons day. Once a person masters the emotion of love, they master all other emotions because without love all other emotions would cease to exist.

♥

By the way, been loving this song a lot lately.

Day 25 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to

These are the twin falls in Kauai Hawaii. Kauai is by far the most gorgeous place I have ever been and probably will ever have the oppritunity to go to

Day 26 – What’s your make up routine?

first, foundation

a pinkish blush

tons of eyeshadow to choose from but I usually go for a light brown

black waterproof liquid eye liner

this exact mascara

and

this lipgloss form Victoria's Secret

Day 23 – A photo of something that means a lot to you

This just kind of encompasses the whole LDS religion. Its helped me through hard times and helped me appreciate the good times. I would be so lost without it

About a Boy

Dear Certain Boy,

I owe you big time. You came into my life at a time where I thought everything was going great. In my mind, I just saw you as a super nice and cute guy that I knew I wanted to get to know. We didn't get much time together because you went on your mission a few months after we met. When I got to know you better I just wanted to add you to the list of friends that I have. You have been there for me through the recent hard times. You may not have been here in person but I have been able to write you. Your letters have seriously helped me to stay strong when I have wanted to crack. There have been many times where I have wanted to give up and take the easy road instead of the right road and without telling you this you seemed to just know. Your letters still keep me going and remind me that there are amazing people like you out in the world. Your love of music, Harry Potter and your general niceness immediately drew me to you and I love that I can go on Harry Potter and music tangents and you dont mind. In fact, you join in and go off on the tangent with me which I really appreciate. Its funny, I have this general belief that most people are rude and I try not to trust too many of them because of the fear I have of getting hurt. You are genuinely the nicest person I have ever, ever met. Coming from me, that is huge. I know you will never read this but you really have helped me get though so many hard times and I just wanted to thank you. :)  

Day 22 – 15 facts about you

1. I'm a Harry Potter addict

2. Snape is my favorite

3. I'm really happy Scotty McCreery won American Idol tonight

4. Thanks to Katie, I am now addicted to a frozen pie you can get at Walmart

5. I now work at Bath And Body Works!

6. I like weird music

7. I believe that one day we must all answer to everything we have done

8. I meditate frequently but havent done it lately

9. I really wish I could dance

10. Things seem to be falling into place

11. Missionary letters get me through the toughest times

12. I wish I would have been smarter with some of the choices I have made

13. My birthday is next Thursday!

14. I cannot wait for Harry Potter 7 Pt. 2!!

15. I wish I had a Snape potter puppet pal

Job, Money and a Letter!

Soooo just an annoucement, I GOT A JOB! Yay! I now work at Bath and Body Works. So, if you are ever in the neighborhood, come visit me! Oh and I can help you find gifts! (Sadly I cannot give you my discount though haha.) So yeah! AHH!! :)

Oh! And I got my government check for my taxes last year AND a letter from Mike! Today has been a lovely day thats for sure :)

♥

Day 21 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear person,

Wow, you play the victim beautifully. You deserve an academy award for your performance. The reason you are the recipient of this letter that you will never see is because you are ridiculous. The hurt from you occured about a month ago but I still think about it. I probably should be thanking you because you have shown me how strong I can be and you have helped me choose between what is right and what is easy. I know I cant trust you and I dont intend to trust you again anytime soon. If you want my trust back, you have to prove it. Good luck with that!

Relizations And An Update

Well hello there! I figured I should actually do an update since I haven't done one of those in awhile. Basically last week we celebrated my brothers birthday on Monday. The weather has been awful! I love rain but when it rains this much I get really sick of it. Give me some sun! Its almost June and I'm wearing long sleeves.

My birthday is next week! Its on the same day as the THS high school graduation which my bestie is involved in so I'll be spending part of my birthday at a graduation which is fine with me lol. I got to go with my mom to pick one one of my birthday presents on Saturday. I got cowboy boots! Buut I don't get to have them in my possession till my birthday. The reason I wanted cowboy boots is because lately I have been really loving cowboys (haha don't make fun of me.) This is much attributed to country music which I have been loving lately as well.

Lately I have come to a realization considering relationships. I'm single which I have been for the majority of my life. But I love being in a relationship. However, I know I don't need a relationship to be happy. Ever since the break up I have wanted nothing more than to find someone new and I obviously haven't done that. Relationships are nice but they aren't everything and I know that now. I don't need one to be happy. Summertime is known for the Summer romances that happen and I surprisingly don't want to go seek one out. If its meant to happen then it will. Seeking out a relationship is pretty much useless. I don't want to try to make something happen. I'm going to enjoy the time I have being single. I have some awesome single friends and we can just go out and have fun. Especially since Katie is leaving for Cedar City in the Fall I especially need to make the best of the time I have with her while I have it. I know that if I were still in a relationship that this would be effected massively. For now, my friends and family are going to come before any man. Most of the guys I know are on missions anyway lol. Give me sun, friends, fun times and a pool and I'll be happy this summer. If a boy walks into the picture, fine. But its not everything and I will not be seeking it out.

♥

P.S. this is totally off subject but I figured out that if you spray perfume into your hair brush then brush your hair it will smell amazing!

P.S.S. In the last two weeks I have lost 4lbs! Not much but for the time frame of 2 weeks that's pretty darn good if you ask me :)

Day 20 – A photo of something that makes you happy

This just represents music in general. I love looking for new music, discovering new music, listening to music just anything involving it makes me happy. Its my escape that says the words I cant seem to come up with and say myself. I feel it from head to toe. I think I get this from my dad because he is the exact same way when it comes to feeling music.

Day 19 – The meaning behind your blog name

The meaning behind my blog name? There really isnt any meaning behind it. I guess its just Simply Lyssa because its just me. All my thoughts or whatever unedited. What you read is what you get. There is no sugar coating anything and its pure me.

Day 18-- Another picture of you but this time with 20 facts

1. I recently dyed my hair. It now looks blonde

2. This rainy weather is really making me mad

3. I love chocolate

4. I frequently talk with my hands

5. I cant remember what I put the last time I had to do facts about myself

6. I love Serverus Snape

7. People are usually surprised when I stand up for myself since I'm so shy

8. I hate being shy

9. I am currently using yellow headphones

10. I like WalMart adventures

11. I found 50 calorie bread and I'm thrilled

12. Sometimes it feels like I live in a black and white world

13. Currently I am listening to Mat Kearney

14. I love watching the quail cross the street by my house

15. My brother made me a Harry Potter wand and it is epic

16. Currently my obsession with Lifehouse is coming back to life

17. When looking for qualities in a guy I am drawn to someone who will listen to me and is funny

18. I love shopping but what girl doesnt?

19. I believe a lot of the music industry is going down hill

20. Today I had a job interview. I hope it went well and I get the job :)

Day 17 – Something you crave a lot

This is a molten chocolate cake from Chiles. This thing is absolutely amazing! Dont get me wrong, I loooove my moms homemade deserts and crave them a lot too but this just represents how much I crave just chocolate in general. This thing is full of chocolate! Man, I'm getting hungry just thinking about it!

Day 16 – A photo of you and your family

Finding a picture of my family all together is pretty rare because my dad HATES pictures lol. Here is one from our Disneyland trip this year. Yay for timers on camera!

Happy Birthday Bryan!

Blog, blog, bliggity blog oh how I love to write my random thoughts to you.

So, tomorrow is my brothers 14 birthday! Soooo weird that hes that old. I'd write tomorrow but because of that I will not be able to. This blog post is dedicated to my brother (not that he reads this or anything.)

Time has gone by so fast. Next year he will be learning to drive and in the fall he will be in 9th grade!

I remember when he was this small

Such a tiny little chubby boy. Now hes getting older and turning into a man. He's got himself some friends and is beginning to make his own decisions. Sometimes I forget that he's older and can make it own choices. Sometimes I still see him as the little boy who would constantly ask to play dolls with me when I was little. Now, he looks like this

So much older and so much more grown up. Gah! I remember when he was younger we would talk about when he turned 16 and now thats like 2 years away. When he's 16 I'll be 21. Such a weird thing. Everyone is growing up and getting lives! Amazing how time flies.

Happy 14th Birthday Bryan!!