Getting our frustrations

1. People need lives. They are not as high and mighty as they think that they are. It drives me crazy when someone decides that just because they have this or that or that they see themselves as more important than other people and they go on major power trips! Not necessary people. I promise you. Get off your high horse.

2. I wish people were more understanding. It drives me insane when someone wont even hear another person out or when they know that persons situation and they don't even care. News flash! You are not the only one out there with problems. There are plenty of people out in this world with problems bigger than you and bigger than them. Its hard to handle sometimes and when you decide to run your mouth and tell that person to "get over it" its frustrating and quite rude.

3. Stop lying. Really? Is lying really necessary? About little things? NO! Get over yourself. If you have done something you know you weren't supposed to then man up and come clean. Lying just digs you deeper and deeper into the issue you have created. If you have done something so terrible you feel the need to lie because you think the person you are lying to is gonna be mad at you then they have every right to yell at you. Again, get off of your high horse.

I really just wish people could be decent but I don't think people are capable of being that way anymore. They twist your words and make you sound like the bad guy, they wont hear you out and when they have one side of a story they take that as truth, and they don't try to understand. ALjglksdjfgslkdfjslkdfjlskdf!!!! Yes I am frustrated with the human population right now. Its just irritating that people cant even be nice to each other anymore or try and understand what another person might be going through. So I say this to the general population of the world, GET OVER YOURSELF! That is all.

Letting Go

Letting go is...hard. Theres no other way to put it. Especially when someone that was important to you leaves your life for one reason or another. Eventually, that person has to be let go of. Whether it is an ex, a family member who has died or a friendship that went sour. Those feelings need to be let go of.

When it comes to ex's, it can be really hard to let go of them depending on how close you were with that person but they left you or you left them for a reason. They need to be let go of regardless because if you hold on to that person then they will become a hindrance while you are looking for the person who you are meant to be with. But forgiving that person is also a huge thing. Holding on to anger is useless. You are hurting no one but yourself. Yes, I realize I need to take my own advice but the truth is, I am not ready to let go of the anger. I really am angry and I have a feeling it will be awhile before I can let go of all of that anger. I do realize it has been awhile since all that crap happened but for some reason I cant seem to let it go or get over it. I'm usually a forgiving and forgetting person but this, this is different for whatever reason. I don't know why it is different but it is and I still have issues with it. I am slowing getting over my anger and feeling betrayed but it will come and I know that it will. Every day it gets easier.

When it comes to a family member or a friend who has died the feelings of sadness need to be let go of. Yes, it is hard and you are allowed to grieve over that person but doing it for a long amount of time is not the best idea. Remembering all the good times is what you need to do. When thinking about that person, don't think about their death and their last few months or days here on this earth. Instead, think about how much you love that person and how much fun you had with them. Happiness is stronger than sadness and letting go of that sadness and replacing it with happiness is what needs to be done. I understand how this can be and I know that it can be really hard to replace sadness with happiness but I promise you that if you can gather the strength to do it life will be a ton happier. But, do not attempt forget this person in their entirety. That will only make the process harder.

When a friendship goes sour its hard not to forget the feelings of anger, frustration and loneliness that accompany that situation. Everyone has had at least one friendship go sour in their lives and when that friendship meant a lot to you its really hard to let go of and get over. When a friendship (or relationship) doesn't work out it is hard to accept at first and saying goodbye to that friend is hard because of all the fun you had with them and how much time you spent with them meant a lot to you but sometimes these relationships don't work out because that person is not what you need or isn't a good person for you to be associated with at the point in your life that you might be. When a friend betrays you its hard not to remember that but again, harboring anger towards that person doesn't do any good. It only hurts you.

Long story short, letting go is hard no matter what needs to be let go of but if you put forth the effort, you will get there and you will be so much happier when you do :)

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Random Update

So things in life have been all over the place. Work has been insane (stupid sale that lasts forever!), my Cali family came and visited while dropping of Haley at BYU so it was great to see them. We played with dry ice bubbles! Yeah, so cool. I finally feel like I am falling into place in my singles ward. Yes I still feel a little on the outs because I am one of the younger people in the ward but I have people to hang out with now which makes things a ton better and makes me more willing to participate in activities. Thursday my family is going to the Manti Pageant. I am so excited because its been years since I have been to that and if there is ever a time where I have needed help from above, its now. I'm rather confused as to where I need to go from where I'm at. I know I need to go to school and such and I am doing that. I know I need to be working and I am doing that as well. I just feel like something is missing and I cant quite pinpoint what it might be. Lately I have also been feeling like I need to change who I am in and odd way in order for me to go where I want to in life. But today I got an email from one of my missionary friends and he said and I quote "Be who you are and not who anyone else wants you to be. God made you, not man." Holy crap, I haven't even told him about this. It just kind of came out of the blue. My jaw pretty much dropped when I saw that. I have no doubt that missionaries are inspired even when they are writing letters to friends and family. The funny thing is, this isn't the first time something like this has happened with this same missionary. Gosh I love missionaries :) But I still feel like I need to find my purpose I guess. Its almost like I'm wandering around on a dirt road and the scenery isn't changing at all. Its quite an odd feeling. Well that's it for now. Maybe I'll write something tomorrow. I am addicted to this after all

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Just a Quick Update

I realize I have not done a normal blog entry lately and I apologize for that. I just love doing random things as well because one day, I plan on printing out my blog and I think it'll be fun to see what music I liked at different times in my life and all that so yeah.

Lately I have just been working a lot and I've been shopping a couple of times. I'm so lucky to have found a job in this economy! My boss scares me sometimes but I love the assistant managers and my coworkers. They are very easygoing and fun to talk to and get to know. I've been to Rue 21 and bought some stuff from their sale and went to Victorias Secret and got some stuff there during their sale too. 

I got my Harry Potter tickets! I'm seeing the next Harry Potter at the University Mall at 12:03am :) I'm excited beyond belief!

I'm really hoping I dont have to work tomorrow because my Cali family is visiting! I love them to death and wish I got to see them more often.

Next Thursday I'm going to the Manti Pageant with my family! I havent been for years and I'm really excited for that too. This summer has been really laid back so far which is fine but I wish I had more to do. I have a job and such but when I'm not working I'm usually sitting at home. I think I need more friends haha. Well thats enough of my random and late updating. So, please enjoy this picture of Snape :)

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Napoleon Dynamite

I got curious again and looked to see what the top google searches were for today and I am proud to say that there is hope for our world. In the top 10 (towards the top actuallly) was Napoleon Dynamite.

For those of you who do not know this pointless briliance here is a short video

Its even being made into a TV show on Fox!

And of course, who can forget the infamous dance scene

Top 5 Country Artists

So, whilst on the internet being bored I got curious and decided to see what has been searched most on Google so far this week. I couldnt help but notice most of the searches were country music singers! I was confused then realized that the CMT awards were today haha. Since I have been listening to that kind of music lately and recently got myself some cowboy boots I figured I would highlight my favorite country singers! I know most of you probably dont like country music buuuut you should open your mind because its not as bad as its been made out to be. As long as its not the hardcore stuff about the guys horse dying, his girl leaving him or him getting so drunk he cant remember the next day I'm happy.

5. Luke Bryan

He was on The Celebrity Apprentice a couple seasons ago where Brett Michaels was giving him a makeover and such for his task. After that, he sorta dropped off the face of the earth. Well recently I found him again on iTunes and I am loving what he has released

                                                                             

4. Blake Shelton

You may know him as one of the judges on The Voice. Thats where I first heard of him anyway. So, I looked him up to see if he was any good and I actually like him!

3. Lady Antebellum

Pretty sure you all know who they are. I looove their music so much. I got their album for Christmas or something and I have really enjoyed it. The chemistry they have when they sing together is so amazing and the way their voices sound is absolutely breathtaking.

2. Brad Paisley

Basically, he tied for first with the actual first place one because I love his music like crazy. I cant remember who introduced me to his music but I love it. Has such a distinctive voice and when he sings ballads it just takes you to a whole other place and he tells a story with each song. Love him!

1. Kenny Chesney

Like I said, I had a hard time choosing between Brad Paisley and this guy but man do I love his music. I cant remember who intoduced me to him either but I am addicted to this mans voice. It just has that special quality to it that the music industry is losing. True talent is right here.

Well those are my top 5 country artists. I hope you arent disappointed that Taylor Swift didnt make it in here but lets face it, as great of a song writer as she is and as much as I love her music, when she sings in concert she cant stay on key and its ridiculous.

The music industry has gone so downhill lately that the only true music (no electronic stuff or auto tuning) left is pretty much country music. (And the good ol' 80's rock bands that still put stuff out. Ex: Journey) Its raw, its real and its not a freaking computer doing all the work.

Angry At Men Playlist

So, someone asked me if I could make them an "angry at men" playlist. Sort of like a break up playlist but an angry one. I felt the need to post it cause I am very proud of it. I'll post the whole list but only youtube videos of a few of them

1. Fighter -Christina Aguilera

2. Love Drunk -Boys Like Girls

3. When I'm Gone -Simple Plan

4. So What -Pink

5. Take A Bow -Rihanna

6. Lovin, Touchin Squeezin -Journey

7. Jar of Hearts -Christina Perri

8. Songs Like This -Carrie Underwood

9. Regret It -Mark Ballas

10. Before He Cheats -Carrie Underwood

11. Never Again -Kelly Clarkson

12. I'm Gone, I'm Going -Lesley Roy

13. Goodbye -Kristinia DeBarge

14. Shut Up -Simple Plan

15. Love/Hate Heartbreak -Halestorm

16. I Heard it Through the Grapevine -Marvin Gaye

17. Love Song -Sara Bareilles

18. Bye, Bye, Bye -Nsync

19. When Did Your Heart Go Missing? -Rooney

20. Too Little, Too Late -Jojo

21. Cant Catch Tomorrow -Lostprophets (this song is actually about a chick but it works for guys too)

22. Mean -Taylor Swift

23. King of Anything -Sara Bareilles

24. The Story of Us -Taylor Swift

25. Any Man of Mine -Shania Twain

26. Tell Me Why -Taylor Swift

27. Rolling In The Deep -Adele

28. Your Love is a Lie -Simple Plan

29. Forever & Always -Taylor Swift

30. Its Alright, Its OK -Ashley Tisdale

31. Forget you -Cee Lo Green

32. Since You Been Gone -Kelly Clarkson

Not gonna lie, this is pretty much how I've been feeling lately and ya know what? I like it hahahaha!

Day 30 – A photograph of youself + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

1. I found a job!

2. Turned 19

3. Got to see extended family members and friends I havent seen in forever

Day 29--Something You Are Afraid Of

I know its silly, but I am terrified of these things! I run away from them as fast as I can

Day 28 – Something you could never get tired of doing

Listening to music by far. I just love it. Changes my mood, makes me think and other times its just fun to dance around to. Love listening to music :)