First off, hi. I'm having issues figuring out how to start this because its been awhile-ish since I last updated. Life has been....interesting. I have been at a crossroads lately. Usually I can make a decision involving important things in my life pretty quickly but I have reached the fork in the road and have kinda stopped. I'm just standing there, staring at both roads trying to think it through. My thought processes have not been very clear either. I am soooo glad I'm going to Cali on Saturday. Whenever I go there I can usually clear my head pretty well. The whole way there I pop in my headphones and listen to the music. I am alone with my thoughts for about 10 hours there and 10 hours back. When I'm there everything just leaves my head and I can focus on my familly and having fun.
Every year we go to Disneyland and every year I have been able to go and come back with a clearer head. There have been decisions I have made while sitting on a rollercoaster haha so I'm very excited to go and clear my head and come back more motivated to do something and choose a road.
I'm not going to go into what roads I am trying to choose between because I'd rather not make it public. Some of you know and others of you dont. If you are that curious to know just ask me and chances are I'll tell you. I will tell you this though, the fork in the road involves another person and it could potentially change my life for either the better or for the worse which is what scares me. I dont want to make the wrong choice.
Theres another thing I'm contemplating as well. My best friend Katie is moving to Cedar City in the fall to go to SUU. My parents have got me to start actually kind of consider moving down there and going to school with her and rooming with her. I have to figure out if this is something I should or need to do. I know I need to move out eventually and meet new people so I'm just wondering if now is the time.
So yeah thats where I'm at right now.
In other news...it snowed. I am not a happy person at alllll. I bought some short sleeve shirts the other day! C'mon! Stupid weather. I'm ready for Spring.
Spring break is next week! Aaaand I'm taking Monday and Tuesday off (break technically starts on Wednesday). We are driving to St. George Saturday then continuing on to Cali on Sunday. I get to see my Cali family!! I miss them tons and tons and Haley, I am super excited for you to move down here and go to BYU. We will have to hang out more often and you'll have to introduce me to any awesome people you meet at school (I need more friends lol.)
So Lady GaGa, she has a new-ish song and there is a line from it that keeps going through my head "I'm beautiful in my way, cause God makes no mistakes." This is true for everyone. I dont care if you are black white, orange, blue, green whatever. You are beautiful and people love and care about you. This goes for both guys and girls because I know its mostly girls who dont think they are pretty enough (I'm no exception to this rule) but guys have this problem too whether anyone knows it or not.
Guys, if you are a nice guy and your "dream girl" going for the bad boys then shes not worth it. There are girls out there who are tired of dealing with the jerks and just want a nice guy. She is out there looking for you and as long as you are focusing on the girl that likes the jerks its going to take you a whole lot longer to find her. You dont have to be strong, or look like a male model, just be yourself. Coming from a girls point of view, thats all we want is a guy who is real and genuine.
Girls, you are pretty enough, you are smart, nice, and caring enough etc. etc. So the one guy you have your eye on doesnt like you and would rather date a skank instead, dont change yourself for him. When this occurs they will only like the fake version of you not the real you and when they realize that you arent what they thought you were its going to hurt a lot more as opposed to him not liking you. There are nice, decent guys out there. Are they hard to find? Absolutely. If you have an intense personality like mine (and you like to tell it like it is and stand up for yourself) dont change that. I have spent hours wondering if that aspect of my personlity is the problem and its not. I am me and I will change for no one. You shouldnt change for anyone either. Its not worth it. Keep your eyes open. There is a guy that you dont even know exists who thinks you are the most beautiful person in the world.
That is my rant and I'm done now
♥
Time for the music thing!
Day 3: A song that makes you happy
Yes this is Michael Jackson. Its called Will You Be There. Its one of MJ's songs that people dont really know about which is really depressing. This is by far my favorite MJ song. Dont get me wrong, I loooove Billie Jean, Bad, Beat It, Thriller etc. but this song for some reason hits me differently. This song makes me happy. I first heard it on accident and have been hooked since. By far one of my favorite songs and one of the best songs MJ has ever written.
Sorry if this is a weird version of the song. I'm in my English class and cant preview it. If it sounds weird and you want to hear the real version I'm pretty sure its on my playist on this page on the side. If its not there I can direct you to the real version :)
2 comments:
Yikes, crossroads are never fun! I just barely hit one just this past month, but through tons and tons of prayer and pondering, it's turning out okay so far :) Totally suggest those steps to you too. Have fun in Cali, I'm way jealous!
Yay for cousins! :D I remember one time a speaker in my ward said that when you need to make a decision, ask the Lord, and if you don't get an answer immediately, make whichever choice goes with your best judgement, and the Lord will eventually let you know if what you are doing is right :) I hope that helps :) Thanks for the pep talks they are verrrry true! :D
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