Christmas fun!

Hey! So basically this last week was pretty good! I was out of school the whole week and on...I think it was Tuesday it snowed! Like a lot and it made me very happy. Thursday I went up to Farmington (I think) and visited my Grandma. We brought her Christmas present and such and it was pretty fun! Traffic on the way home was HORRIBLE though. The rest of the day I hung out with my family and got stuff ready for Christmas and wrapped a couple presents.

Friday was Christmas Eve! That day Austen was coming down to Provo to visit his sister so he came down a little bit earlier and we hung out. We wandered the mall then went over to my house and my mom gave him a present! Haha I love my mom. We spent quite a lot of time at my house talking to my parents and such actually. I think they are warming up to him lol which is a very good thing. Eventually he had to leave to go visit his sister so I went and got ready for dinner. We went to La Doce Vita for dinner (like we have for the past few years on Christmas eve) and it was gooooood.

Saturday was Christmas! My brother decided it would be fun to wake me up at like 620 when I was sleeping so wonderfully. He shook my whole bed! So he woke me up then my parents and we all walked to the living room half asleep to open presents. It was a great Christmas. I finally got a new phone! Yay!!! Oh, and a lightsaber. I'm officially a jedi!

Yesterday I went to my home ward for church again. Nothin special happened but it was nice to be with them again.

Today has been rather uneventful. I was kinda blah today so I played the Lego Harry Potter Wii game most of the day haha. Yes my love for Harry Potter is that great :) This friday is new years! Start thinking of resolutions and be safe and have fun :)

♥ you!

Weekend adventures

Hey everyone! I'm letting less time pass between posts! Its nice actually have time to do this and not have to do homework all the time. Yay for Christmas break!! :D alright so this weekend basically rocked. Friday I went to temple square and out for dinner and such with Austen and his parental units. They came over and met my parental units and it was kind of awkward but we ended up talking a lot about cats which was pretty entertaining and made things a tad bit less awkward. Then we left and drove up to Johnny Carinos in Sandy. Oh my yummy Italian food. Thats all I can think of to say about it lol. After, we continued our drive to Salt Lake City. We got there and there were TONS of people EVERYWHERE! We got out of the car and the first thing we saw was some people dressed up as Santa and Buddy The Elf (this picture can be seen on my facebook FYI). These people are basically epic. Then we went and listened to a choir for a little bit then Austen and I decided to go on our own little adventure around temple square. While on our little adventure we ran into some sister missionaries and we asked them to take a picture for us but then we ended up talking to them for quite awhile. It was quite amazing. Missionaries are pretty awesome people. Then we continued our adventure and Austens parents wanted to know where we were so we met up with them and started on our way home. Then it started snowing. Yay!

Saturday I did some Christmas shopping for people in my family and it was quite enjoyable. Then we watched the BYU game! They won!! Twas quite awesome.

Sunday was church. I went to my homeward instead of the singles ward and caused problems in sunday school and young womens. People just love talking to me I guess! lol jk. But yeah, Amelia had me come with her when I should have gone to the adult sunday school and relief society. Gotta love Amelia!

And now, I leave you with a picture from my epic Friday adventrue.

♥ you all! :)

Love Remains The Same (I'm currently listening to this song haha)

Hellloooo! I'm alive!! Finals are officially over and I'm done with my first semester of college! Finals officially suck. My English final was easy peezy lemon squeezy but my science and math finals were like death. It didnt exactly help that we were told all semester that we couldnt use calculators on our math final but then they changed that rule and didnt tell my professor so I was stuck with the stupid calculator on my phone. I had my health final today and last night I only studied for 2 hours but I'm pretty confident I owned that final. It was soooo easy! Not to mention I was the second person to finish only a couple seconds behind the first. Hopefully I wont have to take any classes again.

Saturday I did some shopping with my mom for Chrismas! Christmas shopping is tons of fun. Tuesday I went and did some Christmas shopping with my brother. He is fun to run errands with. We basically started blasting Def Leppard and had a jam session. The looks we got from cars next to us were priceless.

Tomorrow I'm goin to Temple Square with Austen and his parents! I'm sooo excited!!!! :D

So once upon a time it was the middle of December and there was no snow on my lawn. I am not happy at all. We need snow!! Its not Christmas without snow! It doenst even feel like Christmas. Its sooo weird! Usually I'm bouncing off the walls like a 5 year old around this time and I'm not doin that. Hopefully now that finals and such are over it will start to feel more like Christmas time.

These are the basics of my life at the moment. There is soooo much more but I'd rather not make it public info sooo yeah sorry. Have a fantastic day loyal blog readers!

♥

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times -Dumbledore

Hello faithful blog readers! Thanks for reading my very lame/complaining/boring blog entries. Makes me feel happy  :D anyways....

This last weekend was super duper fun. Friday I went up to Salt Lake with Katie. We were gonna go see the Temple Square lights buuut due to us not thinking clearly we didnt get to. But we did go see Tangled and looked at the lights at the Gateway. Twas very much fun. I'm so thankful to have wonderful friends. Even if they are few and far between, I'd rather have a few close friends that I can trust rather than 100 "friends" that I cant trust and dont care about me. So yeah.

Saturday was verrrry relaxing. I ended up watching Eclipse with my mom. Really stupid movie. Actually, that whole series is lame. Sorry you Edward Cullen obsessed fans but real men dont sparkle, they defeat dark wizards.

Sunday was the family Christmas party with my moms side of the family! We started off with delicious food (as usual) and ended up downstairs and played our yearlly white elephant gift exchange thing. The game was way fun this year. I ended up with money! (which my family brought haha). I love my family they all rock. Oh, and to Cali family: we all missed you!

Monday I took my first college final! It was my English final and we had to respond to the question "what grade do I deserve and why?" I pretty much spent 2 pages bragging about how awesomely smart I am (hahahahah i wish, but still). Hopefully I'll pass! Next week is the last week of school and its finals week. You might as well just kill me now. I'm scared of my science final. Pray for me!

God is real, love is real, happiness can be found anywhere you look, and we are all blessed. Love you all!

♥

Things are shaping up :)

Hellooooo readers of my blog!! I've had a lot on my mind lately so I'm sorry its taken me this long to write. Things are starting to fall into place and its been very nice even with all the stuff I have going on and have been worrying about I have been able to find peace. Its only Wednesday and this week has been awesome so far.

Sunday I  had a family party for birthdays and such and my cousins and I played Nertz. If you have never heard of this game or never played it then you are missing out sooooo much. Its such a fun game

Yesterday I hung out with Katie! We ate pie and other various sugary things and found funny quotes on the internet. I love that girl. While I was doing homework yesterday I got a call from a company called Doterra. I sent them my resume forever ago cause they are looking for a receptionist and they called me! I have an interview with them tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Today I found out that next Monday is my last day in my English class! I'm kind of sad about this! I actually enjoy that class. The people are so fun and the teacher eventhough she is crazy and scary is fun to listen too. Tonight I saw someone I havent seen in awhile after some stuff happened with them and it was super nice to see them. I never realized how much I care about this person. Everything with this person feels so right like we were put on this earth to find each other. To the person I am talking about: thank you so much for your friendship and helping me through so much in my life. I am always here for you and I know that you are here for me. I am so grateful to know you :) I'm not naming this persons name mainly because I know that if I do a lot of you will probably find me, slap me in the face and tell me that I'm being stupid.  Oh and contrary to what this sounds like, this person and I are not dating haha just thought I would clear that up.

Friday I'm hopefully going to see the Temple Square lights with Katie but I'm not positive. I hope it happens though! Things are finally looking better and I am so thankful for Heavenly Father answering prayers. To any of you who are reading this and going through a hard time, endure the storm you are in and find something you can learn. The sunshine at the end is so wondeful. Dont give up now :)

Love you guys!

♥

Deciding for myself

Hey yall! Yall? Wow you'd think I was from Texas or something haha anyways thats not important. Just thought I would update! Life is slowly getting better.

 I have had major clarification of how I have been feeling about a certain person and I have realized that even though my friends don't like this person I cant let them dictate how I feel. I have let other people in my life manipulate my feelings and what I think about others and its done more damage than good. From here on out, I will be making decisions for me and only me. I'm not saying I will not be taking advice (not that I get any of that anyways) because advice is always appreciated and wanted but just because someone thinks I should or should not do something does not mean I'm going to completely listen to them. A lot of the time people can see things I cannot and sometimes they can be right but I'm convinced they are wrong about this one. It has been suggested that I abandon this person completely and I just cant do that. I'm sorry but I need this person in my life and they need me in theirs its just how it is. I have tried trust me I have tried my hardest. I have tried for the past couple years to do this and I cant do it for one reason or another. I have prayed about this, and I know that I need this person and they need me. So regarding this situation I will only be listening to my intuition and Heavenly Father. He knows better than anyone.

I wrote a sad letter to a missionary about a week ago. Basically I had feelings for him when he left and those feelings were returned for me and we decided we wouldn't officially be together and just see how things went and when he got back we would go from there but I realized about a month ago that I had tricked myself into having those feelings for him to disguise feelings I had for another and have had for awhile now. So yeah I had to break someones heart and I just felt that it would be better sooner rather than later when his feelings got too deep. I have been getting a lot of crap for this and people telling me I should have waited to tell him closer to the end of his mission. Its been really stressful having to deal with people telling me I screwed up and should have waited.

Thanksgiving was yesterday! I hope you all have a fantastic day full of fun and thanks. And for those of you who went shopping today I applaud you. I cannot get up that early to go shopping and fighting people for stuff. So good job :)

I love you all and any support that can be given while going through this confusing time of my life would be much appreciated. Thanks everyone!

♥

P.S. I have just learned blogger has spellcheck. Yay!

Thanksgiving is tomorrow!

Okay so I decided that I'm going to do an actual blog today and not one of the prompts. Thanksgiving is tomorrow! I love being around my family on Thanksgiving. We pig out and occasionally my dad and I will watch the football game together and scream at the tv. I love those moments with my dad. Hes busy being an attorney and everything so getting him to do anything after hes done working is so hard. Even if we are just sitting watching Jepoardy tying to figure out who can answer the question first its still time with him that I wont get later. Love you dad!

yes I was a cute blonde child :)

This Thanksgiving I am especially thankful for the safety of my friends and family. This year I have heard so many stories about people getting injured or even dying. Today on the news I saw that there was an attempted kidnapping of a 14 year old girl on a street not far from mine. My brother is 13 and I am so glad that it wasnt him.

Another thing I am thankful for this year that I have always been thankful for but this year its been magnified is my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I have had so many prayers answered this year. Most of them have been answered through other people so thank you to everyone who is in my life in one way or another. You may not think that you have made a difference in my life but you really have.

Have a wonderful, memorable and safe Thanksgiving everyone. Spend it with the ones that you love and remember all the things you have been blessed with.

Much love! ♥

Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do

Something I never wanna do? I never want to have to chose between two people. I've heard all these horror stories of people having to choose their family or their husband/wife. Some people have to chose between parents when they get divorced then there are the extreme situations where someone may have to chose the life of one person over another. Never do I want to have to make any of these choices. It would just tear me up inside and I think it would take awhile for me to get over.

Today I'm goin to Harry Potter with the fam! I looove that movie haha its amazing. Oh! And in math I got a paper cut :/ it hurt. I knew paper was evil! Thanksgiving break is this week which is fantastic except my English teacher gave us an assignment. I reeeeally dont wanna do homework over the break. Since Thanksgiving is this week take a moment and just think about all the things that you are thankful for. I'm so thankful for the ability to go to school, having a place to live, food on the table, music, my car, and most importantly my family and friends. Thank you guys so much. Those of you who are near and far I love you all :)

Loves! ♥

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Something I would love to do in my life is travel the world. I have always loved travel and I love visitng places. I really want to go to Europe and back to Hawaii and see all the islands of Hawaii.

Another thing I hope to do is be able to get married. Throughout my life I have only had one real boyfriend and he turned out to be a jerk. For whatever reason guys either dont seem to like me maybe because my personality is very intense and I will tell it like it is and so I think people are intimidated by me so my expectancy of marriage has gone way down. I just really hope to find that guy who likes me for who I am and can handle my personality.

My responses to these questions keep getting shorter and shorter haha.

Loves! ♥

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone else for

Hmm I actually have a lot of people I need to do this with. I think my biggest one is my old ward. I have such hard feelings harbored towards them. I was pretty much an outcast and so was my family. My bishiop was very nosy and rude, I really had 2 or 3 friends in that ward and I had lived there for about 10 years. There are people there who hurt my brother and cast him out and stole his best friend and told all the boys his age that he was a horrible person. My parents didnt fit in anywhere and most everyone was extremely fake towards my family. When the bishop asked me why I had stopped going to mutual I told him like it was. I told him that I had one friend, I didnt have a place and I pretty much felt like an outcast. He refused to believe me and we got into an argument that lasted for about an hour. He just couldnt believe that his "perfect little ward" wasnt as perfect as he thought. I will only go back to that ward for one persons mission farewell. I have been invited to mission farewells for people that would never ever EVER talk to me. I have no desire to see these people again. They are very fake and never will I put myself in a place like that ever again. I need forgive these people but I'm having a hard time with it and it will take a lot of time.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for

Something I have to forgive myself for? Hmm theres a couple things actually. I for some reason or another trust people blindly and it gets me in trouble more often than not. I need to forgive myself for being so trusting and not using my brain.

Another thing is that I have talked about people behind their backs and said some not so nice things. I have apologized to those people and now I just need to get over it.

Harry Potter last night was epic! There was a guy dressed up as the golden snitch and he was running around with people dressed up as wizards chasing him. Suuuper funny. Then about half an hour before the show started there was a wizard duel! Twas pretty funny. This morning I have just been all tired and blah so I'm just takin it easy.

Loves! ♥

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

Now you're asking me to be positive? Gosh I dunno if I can do that right now. Everything just seems to be falling apart. But no matter, I will try to be as positive as possible

Something I love about myself? I love how loyal I am and how I will drop everything to listen to a friend or just be there for someone. When I make a friend we are friends for life. Thats it the end. Unless, they decide I am no longer important to them.

When a friend is in need or just someone I know in general I am always there for them and they always come to me. For years my nickname (kind of as a joke) was "The Counseler" I cant even begin to explain how many times I was called that and how long I answered to that. I'm not sure why I am always the one to listen and talk people through their problems. Even when I just barely meet someone its that way. At times I wish that I had someone like that. Because I am the listener and advice giver I dont really have that. I just let everything sit and bottle up. Especially lately. I really need someone like that and someone who will be a loyal friend to me no matter what. Good people like that are hard to come by hence why I'm happy to think that I am this way.

Anyways, I hate talking about myself that way just because it seems to me like its a self-righteous way of talking so I will stop now.

Harry Potter tonight! WOOHOO!! The voice in my head has a British accent when I read things and while I type this. I rather enjoy it :)

Loves!

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

So I found this thing where you write in your blog everyday and answer a different question each time. So I figured I would give it a shot!

So, here is the first one.

What is something you hate about yourself?

I would have to say that I really dont like how shy I am. I really dont understand why I'm as shy as I am. I miss out on a lot of things and a lot of great people. I wish I was I guess what other people would call normal and just be able to walk up to people and start talking to them.

I also dont enjoy how intense my personality is. If I something is not right, if you ask me what I think of you, if you ask my opinion on anything, I will tell you the truth. I will not sugar coat it and I think that ultimately hurts me. I begin to wonder if my personality is too intense or intimidating for some people.

Dont worry, tomorrows question is happier :)

Well last weekend was tons of fun. Friday I hung out with Hannah and Katie. We ate tons of junk food and watched movies! Then Hannahs boyfriend called her and Katie and I ended up screaming in the background for him to hang up. Sorry bout that haha. Boys should learn not to call on a girls night. Just plain and simple.

Saturday I went fourwheeling with the fam then came home and hung out with Brittany later that night! We didnt really have a plan but the unplanned stuff is always the best. We went to Jamba first. Apparently I come in there so much they know who I am :/ After we decided to go to the mall just for kicks and giggles. We looked at stuff and appreciated the stuff in Nordstrom eventhough we couldnt afford any of it. We even tooks pics in the photobooth! While we were walking over to the photobooth who do we run into? Thats right, Austen. Completely unplanned. It was a nice/strange/awkward/fun surprise. So we talked for a bit aaaand yeah. After the photobooth Brittany went and bought a sticker for her truck! Its a crown and super cute. Then we decided we wanted to go to a roundabout and drive in circles. Completely illegal but so worth it :) Then we had a Target adventure! Thats what these pics at the end are from. Then we ended the night with looking at rich people houses and having ice cream and fries. Yes my friends are awesome :)

Well thats pretty much all the excitingness that has happened in my life. I'll write tomorrow or Monday about all the emotionalness of my life. Things have been building up and I need to let it out somewhere right?

Love you!

Just So You Know- Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken

I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know

Things I should say but cant

woeijrwlkejrlskdjfslkdfjs<----- please note that this is the current state of my brain. Yet another ranting blog is about to occur but this one not as scary as the last one. Just need to vent aaand its almost midnight and I dont wanna call anyone so yeah. Here is goes!

I know what he does to me and I'm pretty sure he does too which is probably why I become a fun little toy for him to play with and throw around. I'm a brat to him because of the 50ft high 10ft thick wall that is up because of him. I dont want to get hurt again. But at the rate I'm goin, its lookin like thats whats gonna happen. I'm already in too deep and I know it. I need to escape but his hold on me is so strong I just cant. My heart skips a beat when I see his name show up on my phone, when I hear his name in other peoples conversations or just in general, when I see him it feels like its going to fall out of my chest. As soon as I get to a place where I'm either over him or have realized I can live without him and be fine he pulls me back in! It takes forever to even get to a place like that and it takes only a second and its gone. I cant get out on my own. There is just so much I want to say to him and I cant do it! Half of it would make my 50ft wall just come crashing down and I dont want it to come down. I know that if it does I'm vulnerable again. I dont want to get hurt again. I've already been hurt by him twice. I cannot endure that pain anymore. I know I have strong feelings for him and that fact that I do just makes this even more annoying! No matter how hard I try to get over him and just move on with my life I cant do it. I have had it with feeling this way but nothing I do gets rid of feeling this way. Its gotten to the point that I am convinced he is supposed to be in my life in one way or another I just dont know how he fits into the puzzle. Gosh I just dunno what to do anymore. He just takes more and more of my heart everyday. I'm pretty sure he knows how I feel about him but it feels like he doesnt even care. He just seems like he wants to play with my emotions. He is a good guy but he is covering it up. The good guy in him is who I like but this mask he is putting on covers that person which is probably why it feels like he doesnt care about me. Ugh I dont even know anymore. Thats my rant on one boy. To the boy this is about: I know you have this blog address. I hope you can figure out that this is about you. These are the things I want to say to you but am afraid to.

I'm alright :)

Phew! K just so you know, I'm alright. Sorry for that last post. I just needed to vent. Everytime I try to talk to people I get interupted or the person I'm talking to just doesnt seem to care so yeah. Had to clear my mind so I could think about some things and just figure stuff out with my life. So thanks for bearing with my ranting/depressing blog post :)

This last weekend was pretty lame actually. Yeah it was Halloween but I did nothing. I was gonna go to the UVU dance but I have no one to go with, I didnt wanna pay 15 bucks and I wasnt feeling my best. So I ended up staying home watching When A Stranger Calls and Grease.

I finally got around to buying Taylor Swifts album and I LOVE it! So I apologize to you people who actually read my facebook status' since they have all been from one of her songs for the passed few days. I'll try to think of other things to put up. Her songs just relate to my life almost perfectly! Its crazy!

On Sunday I bought Harry Potter tickets! 12:05! With Katie and my brother :) Yeah I'm pretty stoked. Wow I havent said that word since like jr high :/ gotta love those moments. I got registered for classes yesterday as well. Oh and I'm looking for a job. So if you know anyone who is hiring please, please, PLEASE let me know. I voted today too! It was weird. I feel so old! But it was nice to be able to have somewhat of a say in things eventhough my vote didnt really matter. Republicans would have won anyways.

Well thats it for me! Loves! ♥

Getting it out there

Well I have successfully managed to put my life into a hole. Most of my "friends" have completely disappeared from my life, people in my ward cant even remember my name and remind me of my old ward that I hated for about 10 years, I have feelings for someone that I know I cant have and I know isnt good for me, no matter how hard I try I cant find a job, my classes are getting harder and no matter how much I apply myself I dont understand what is being taught in some of them, and it almost feels like I'm getting yelled at my someone allllll the time.

Sorry for the depressingness of this post but I just need to get this out. I bottle everything up inside of me for really long periods of time then it just comes out. This is one of those coming out moments

In the singles ward I just dont fit. I hate waking up every Sunday morning full of dread and other horrible feelings towards my ward and its transfering over to how I feel about the church. This needs to be orgainized better. I know that the church is true and I know that our doctrine is true so please dont think this is my way of saying I am going to leave the church because that is not the case at all. I just dont think this singles ward thing was orgainized very well. I have been going to that ward since July and people havent bothered to learn my name, havent bothered to make me feel welcome and the sadest thing of all is that the bishop has not said a word to me since I started coming to that ward. I went to my home ward last week and I just love it there. I know people, the bishop is awesome and I just feel welcome there but I cant go back to that ward. I'd be the only 18 year old sitting in relief society and the only 18 year old in gospel doctrine. No thank you.

No matter what I do I feel like I'm not good enough for anything or anyone. I do something that I think is awesome and I get yelled at for it. Then I dont do that same thing later and STILL get yelled at. Where is this logic coming from?! It makes no sense! I have tried to make friendships and relationships work and nothing ever pans out. It feels like I get second best of everything I go for. Part of this is probably because my self esteem is not that great. I'm very shy and awkward around people so when I first meet someone or get around someone that has hurt me I tend to come off kind of rude. I have been hurt by too many people so I have a hard time trusting people mainly because I dont want to get hurt again. I need people in my life but its almost like they dont care about me or they think they are too good for me. It hurts to care about people so much and so deeply and have them just throw me off to the side like I'm nothing.

Most boys are dumb. They will play with your emotions, make you fall for them then just throw you off to the side knowing that you will do pretty much anything for them whenever they want. There are decent boys out there but all the decent boys I end up being attracted to are way out of my league, or taken. I cant function around these people! I can function just fine around the ones that users and players and I have yet to figure out why that is. I think I need to stop showing these people that I will be there when they want me to be. I am giving them way too much control. Its time to take back control of my emotions and ultimately my life.

Well sorry for this depressing post but I need to get this all out and venting to a blog that only like 4 people read seemed like the best way to do this.

10.29.10 [once upon a time]

Once upon a time there was a boy and a girl who believed that boy. She fell for him and she fell hard. He broke her heart and left her there alone. He has come back to her life and she is falling again. She tries to fight it but cant seem to control her heart. She will probably get burned and heart broken again.

Well if you cant tell by now, I am the stupid girl from the story. Yes, yes, I have had my heart broken. This boy has a hold on me that I cant seem to shake off. After a constant struggle to let him go and to not fall again I am giving up because its too hard. Yes, I am falling for him again and I cant do anything about it. Yes I understand that this is a stupid thing to do but at this point I just dont care.

On a lighter note, these are the pumpkins I carved! One is my dads and the other is mine (my dad didnt want to carve his. what a party pooper). Thriller was just on the radio, needless to say I am happy :D bwahahaha! Well I hope you all have a wonderful Halloween! Dont eat too much candy :P

My pumpkin! His name is George. Dont ask why cause I dont even know

My daddys! I dunno why I wanted to make it a cyclops

Live your life the way you want and dont look back

Woot! I'm doing better at updating this! Well this passed week was Katies 18th birthday on Saturday. Happy Birthday Katie! Love you!!! Anyways, we went and saw the play "And Then There Were None" it was amazing! Love that play sooo much! Then we went on a treasure hunt around Orem, Lindon and PG. It was tons of fun. The treasure hunt lead us back to Katies house and her mom had prepared a cute Halloween dinner for us. Dear Katies mom, you are awesome. Then after we watched the movie Private Eyes. After that movie ended people had to leave and eventually I was the last one at Katies house so the two of us watched When a Stranger Calls. I have never been so scared to drive home or compelled to lock my door while driving in my life! Such a freaky show! Loved it though :)

This week has been good so far eventhough its only Tuesday. One of my good friends has decided they wanna go to college at UVU this next semester thingy and I am sooo excited! I cant even believe it! Things have a weird way of working out and I know that Heavenly Father answers all of our prayers.

Learned something recently! Live your life the way you want and according to your beliefs and standards and dont look back aka have no regrets. It just makes things easier if you live your life as your own person. Its ridiculous how many people live their lives for others or as someone they are not. Its just not worth it. Live the way you want and be yourself, things will work out the way they are supposed to :)

Katie dressed up as Peter Pan for her party. Its and inside joke so it made my day.

Fourwheeling path

Fourwheeling path

Nerd bowling with Katie!

10.22.2010 {learning a lot}

Well just so you all know, I have not dropped off the face of the planet. I havent updated in forever cause I have tons of pics to post and the computer with all the pics on it is being really slow and its not worth dealing with. So I'm not even gonna recap about life lately I'll just do that later. I kinda just wanna talk about stuff I've learned lately ya know?

Things #1: I have the greatest friends and family

Lately I have been spending a lot of time with my mom. I go to school in the morning and end at like 11 or 12 (depending on the day) so when I get home my mom always has errands to run and she always asks me if I wanna come. I really enjoy these moments. I know that I am more fortunate than other girls because of this. My mom (and dad) have taught me so much. I dont tell them this cause I dont wanna seem mushy haha. My friends are just awesome. This week has been kind of hard and I havent really told anyone about whats going on cause it doesnt even involve me at all but this week I've gotten texts from people just to say hi. Even the people in some of my classes have been really nice and fun to talk to this week which has helped a lot :)

Thing #2: I dont need a boyfriend to be happy

People all over the place are getting boyfriends, getting married, getting engaged etc. and its just kind of made me feel like "okay whats wrong with me?" sort of thing. After doing a lot of thinking I have realized I dont need a boyfriend right now to be happy. I would love to have someone to share things with but thats why I have the friends that I have. I have realized I am not your typical girl. I will stand up for what I believe in, I dont take crap from people and I am not easily manipulated. Because of this I probably come of as a little intimidating but I would rather just be myself and have someone like me for who I am. I see absolutely no point in pretending to be someone you are not just to make someone else fall for you. In the end you just get someone who thinks you are one thing but then when you show who you really are they may not like it and leave you. Its not worth the pain. One day I will find the man that I am supposed to be with and he will like me for who I am and be able to handle the intensity of my personality.

Thing #3: No matter what you have done, Christ will always take you back

I havent really learned this lately from myself but from others. I have always known that this is true but it wasnt until this week when I was explaining it to someone else that I finally came to BELIEVE it. No one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes and everyone can repent and come back to Christ. He is always waiting for you no matter what. "No matter your past, your future is spotless."

Thing #4: Try new things

I'm a scaredy cat. I'm shy and its ridiculously bad. For the past few weeks I've been doing a few new things. I am a perfectionist so trying new things is always a daunting task for me mainly because I am afraid of failure. But in the end you dont want to regret not doing something. Right?

and finally....

Thing #5: Its okay to open up

I try to keep my emotions under wraps because my whole life I have been the strong one in my family and my friends. I dont really have anyone to vent to since I'm the listener of everyone I come in contact with, even people I barely meet will start telling me their life story. So it just gets bottled up and then explodes later over something really stupid. Letting emotions out is not a sign of weakness. It is actually a sign of strength because you have been strong for so long. Open up to people, if they judge you then thats their problem not yours.

Well those are my recent lessons of life for ya!

♥Lyssa

10.04.2010

Well its been about a week since I last wrote so its time again!

On Wednesday of last week math was cancelled! sooo I went home and pretty much procrastinated everything else I had to do cause I simply didnt care. It was just one of those days. The very next day (Thursday) health had been cancelled and we were just reviewing in math sooo I skipped school completely that day and went to lunch with my parents and grandma instead. I'd say Mimi's cafe is a much better alternative to school :)

Friday I watched the pathetic BYU game. They are not doing well and it depresses me very very much. Buuut I still support them which is always fun.

This weekend was conference! I loooove conference so much its ridiculous. Listening to our prophets and apostles talk about things we need to do in our lives and things to be careful of is just a wonderful blessing. This church is so amazing that way. I have no idea where I would be without it.

Not sure whats been going on lately but one of my best friends doesnt even care that I exist anymore all because of a stupid boy. I understand she likes him and they are together and all and she has school and she has a job but we used to talk everyday and I havent talked to her for a couple weeks. Its like I've been thrown to the bottom of her priority list. When you are friends with me I will make you a priority and I will be your friend till the end and to not get that in return hurts. I guess its part of growing up and starting to get a life of your own but its like I dont even matter to her anymore. We've been through a lot together and we've always been there for each other and now its almost like all that has been thrown away. I dunno. This too shall pass.

Well thats it for me! love ya!

Oh and heres me with my new glasses. I took the pic with my laptop camera so it kinda sucks.

09.27.10

Boo! Well its been almost 2 weeks since I've written and since I dont wanna do math homework that I dont understand I figured I would write a little. Last week I was sick towards the beginning but it wasnt too bad. I'm still alive! :D

In English on Wednesday we had to describe the classroom to our professor who was pretending to be blind. There is a guy that sits in front of me who is pretty cute and we made fun of the carpet. Our professor kinda looked at us like we were crazy. Hes a really cool guy I loove talking to him. Super nice guy. That same day I ended up going to the mall and hung out with Sammie and her boyfriend and Austen and his friend. We ended up sitting on a rock in the rain then ened up at Taco Bell cause people wanted food.

This weekend my mom and I watched two movies. The Prince of Persia and Letters to Juliet. Prince of Persia is AWESOME! I've seen it before but it was awesome the second time too. Jake Gyllenhaal is pretty attractive :)

Schools been getting harder cause math is getting harder and I am horrendous at math and have no idea what we are doing anymore.

Tyler hasnt written me back in like 2 weeks. I'm going a little insane. The last time I got a letter was a few days before he left the MTC. AH!!!

David Archuletas new album is on AOL for preview! I've been listening to it all day since I got home from school haha yeah I still love him and no I dont care what you think about that.

Well thats it for me! Bye my lovelys! ♥

9.18.2010

Well its that time again for an update! I got new glasses this week! yeah i'm pretty sure most of you didnt know i have vision correction cause I never wear glasses. So surprise for you! My institute teacher has been telling us a funny quote everyday before we start with the spiritual stuff and it just makes my day. Here are two of the most recent

"When God created the earth he promise women that good men could be find on every corner...then he made the earth round."

The next one!

"Every woman has stress in her life, she either gave birth to is or married it."

Haha I love men bashing quotes sometimes. Especially since I am not happy with the male gender right now. Dont ask me why cause I dont even know. Well I sorta do but I dont wanna explain it.

This week I took my first college test! It was a science test and I SUCK at science! I knew more math than I did science on the ACT. Oh well thats life I guess. I've been sick this week too. Going to school feeling like you are gonna fall over and die is NOT fun at all.

School has been going well! I deicided I need to declare my major but I have no clue what to major in. I am super indecisive and I dunno why. Its gotta be part of my genes or something.

Since Tyler has gone on his mission my testimony has gotten so much stronger. To see the change in him and to have him write stuff that helps me in my life when he has no idea what I'm going through is just amazing. (I havent told him whats been going on cause I dont want him to focus on my problems and such.) The Lord works in mysterious ways.

Well this has been lame. When I get a pic of me and my new glasses I'll post it.

Love you all! ♥

09.10.10

Woo hoo! I only let a week pass before I wrote again! Yay me!

Monday there was no school so I got to stay home and relax! College sure makes you tired but its a good thing. My English teacher is STILL crazy! I really hate that woman but I am enjoying messing with her. By the end of the semester she is going to wish I was never in her class to begin with :D yes I can be a brat. Deal with it.

Well Tyler has been gone for 2 weeks now and I cannot begin to describe how much my texts have gone down! I have unlimited texting but still. Its pretty weird how much I dont text anymore. I guess he was the only one who texted me. Tuesday is now mail day though. I have gotten a letter every Tuesday since he left. Yay for letters!

My brother has had to go a photo project so we went on a photo adventure and took pictures of sunflowers and such. The bottom two pictures are mine.

I was bored today and noticed my cat being all cute on a beanbag chair sooo I decided to take pics of him so thats what those are from.

Well thats enough for me! Love you all!

♥ Alyssa

09.03.10

So apparently I fail at keeping this updated. Stuff has happend so I will try to keep that short as I have a picture thingy. College started last week and its pretty intense but I'm not there for too long. Just till 11 on monday and wednesday, 12 on tuesday and thursday and 10 on fridays. My mom and I have been going out to lunch a lot which has been fun. I miss summer already! So now I will leave you with my picture updates!

The last day of summer we went to Jamba and Pirate Island Pizza. This was in the waiting area

Jamba!!

Watiting for our food

Overlook of the valley at sunset

Tyler! He left on his mission last week so this was the last time I saw him and he wanted to see the overlook

Cascade Springs!!

Overlook at night. I went here with Katie and we ruined like 3 couples make out sessions haha

We decided to go to mcdonalds and get ice cream. lets just say she found more than ice cream

Farrs ice cream!!!

We were on a shopping trip and got stuck at many redlights

Telephone

So I love music (if you didnt know that by know then you dont know me at all) so I felt like doing this at 1:20 am. Enjoy!

1. Put your Ipod on shuffle
2 Type in the song name as an answer to each question (no matter how weird it is.)
3. Go to the next song on your ipod for the answer to the next question


1. What do your friends think of you?
The Saints Are Comin -Green Day & U2


2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
Flat On The Floor -Carrie Underwood

3. How would you describe yourself?
You Dont Belong -Daughtry

4. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Where Are You? -Benton Paul

5. How do you feel today?
Careful -Paramore

6. What is your life’s purpose?
Figure It Out -Maroon 5

7. What is your motto?
How Do You Sleep -Jesse McCartney

8. What do you think about very often?
Ignorance -Paramore

9. What is 2 + 2?
Comatose -Skillet

10. What do you think of your best friend?
Some Kind of Wonderful -Michael Buble

11. What do you think of the person you like?
Ask The Lonely -Journey

12. What is your life story?
Fall For You -Secondhand Serenade

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Speed of Sound -Coldplay

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Through My Eyes -Phil Collins

15. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Why Dont You Kiss Her? -Jesse McCartney

16. What will they play at your funeral?
The Remedy -Jason Mraz

17. What is your hobby/interest?
Fallin To Pieces -Rob Thomas

18. What is your biggest fear?
Medows of Heaven -Nightwish

19. What is your biggest secret?
Let It Be -The Beatles

20. What do you think of your friends?
Blue Lips -Regina Spektor

21. What will you post this as?
Telephone -Lady Gaga

08.11.10

Its already August! I cant believe time has gone by so fast. There is a lot of stuff that I havent written about and so I dont bore you I'm just posting pictures and all that stuff but I will talk for a little bit. Since I've written I went on a donut adventure with Katie and Hannah, an IKEA adventure with them and went to Hawaii with my family! I start college in 2 weeks. I'm freaking out! AHH!! I feel so old! I'm starting college, one of my friends is going on a mission AND I'm the next girl in line to get married on both sides of the family! No pressure right? haha anyways, here are pictures!

Waterfalls in Hawaii :)

We went to the island of Kauai. This is part of the island on our helicopter flight

We bought moose at IKEA :)

And played with silverware

HOLY CHEESEBALLS! Oh the things you find at Target

Went to Salt Lake with Katie and we found matching dress shirt things. Our eyes look creepy in this

There is a camera on my laptop and we were bored, enough said

Laying outside on the lawn bored on a Sunday

Toys R Us crayon banks! Needless to say we bought them

Donuts!!!

All these pics are on my facebook so yeah. If you wanna see more then check there :)

♥ ya!

06.19.2010

Okay so i have ignored my blog for the passed.....idk a very long time. so i stole haleys idea and just put of pictures of importatn things so i dont have to write so much! :D

David Archuleta signed our books. no big deal or anything lol. Thats Aubrie by the way

Got bored and did a photoshoot with Katie and Hannah. The above one is Katie and this one is Hannah in case you were wondering

Oh! I graduated!

We went and saw Brian Regan. Funniest person alive

Bored before a choir concert lol

On the way back from State Festival. It was really windy haha

Spirit Bowl! Thats Ashli, Hannah and me!

I have the coolest cousins in the world. Thats right, your cousins got nothin on mine :P

After a choir concert we went for ice cream....and katie wanted spaghetti o's

The REAL group picture of my Preference group :)

Yes I am aware i look stupid lol but this is the official preference couples picture

Hannah and I on one of our many store adventures :)

Oh P.S. I am thinking about making a photography blog but I'm not sure yet :/ still debating

03.24.10

Hey yall!!! yes I am talking like a hick so you can deal with it if you dont like it. Its been forever since I've written anything. I guess I've just been kinda busy lately. The last time I wrote I talked about preference I think....yeah I did haha. Since then there has been a choir concert! No we did not do as well as I would have liked but oh well thats what festival is for.

So ya know that job I got? yeah still have it and for forever I had nothing to do and my dad finally bought a new laptop and is letting me use the old one here at work. its soooo nice! i'm not bored out of my mind anymore! Now I can write blogs, be on facebook and even listen to music the whole time i'm stuck here. i love it lol.

so spring break is in like 2 weeks and as usual i'm headin up to cali!! i'm sooo excited i loooove cali haha. disneyland here i come!

4th term started this week! I'm almost graduated! I dunno if I wanna grow up yet lol. The world kinda scares me, not gonna lie. I'm getting senior pictures done at the end of next month :D it should be fun but I have no idea how to be a model. I'm usually the one taking the pictures lol. the curse of the photographer, always taking pictures and having no idea how to be a model for them.

Well I think thats my life in a nutshell for ya. Have an awesome day!

♥ Lyssa

02.27.10

Wow its been waaaay over a month but i have stff to write about now! A couple of weeks ago I went on choir tour! We left at like 10 at night and drove through the whole night and our bus broke down like twice. We finally got there and we went to Sea World for the day! After Sea World we went to The Hard Rock Cafe for dinner! I looooove that place. It was so cool to see all the music stuff on the walls like guitars and such. The next day we went to Old Town San Diego, the beach and a couple clinics. The day after that we went to the San Diego Zoo and a Sea Port Village. Soo cool. Then we got on the bus for our adventure home. Before we left we went to the temple and walked on the grounds at night. Such a beautiful temple.
Last Saturday my school had Preference! I went with my pretty much brother Dominic Pasquale. I will love that boy till the day I die. Hes so fun to hang out with. For our day date we went to Color Me Mine. We both picked what we wanted but then our dates painted it. He picked a guitar looking thing and I picked a bunny bowl (which he turned into a demon and we named him Frederick). My table of people got done painting before most everyone else so we went outside and took pictures just for the fun of it lol. After the day date I went home and started to get ready for the dance. My friend Melissa did my hair and such. Then we went and picked up the guys and went to this really nice house and did pictures (will post when i get them). After pics we went and had dinner at Maccaroni Grill. Dominic kept doing all these silly/cute pick up lines on me lol i have no idea how we got on the subject of pick up lines but we did. After we ate we went to the dance at Sleepy Ridge Golf Course. Dominic just happens to work there so we got ahold of his boss and we went on a walk on the course. It was sooo gorgeous! Then we danced for the rest of the night haha. After the dance we went to wendys and got frostys because we didnt wanna go home lol.
Well that is the most recent excitement of my life. I've been sick for a couple days and such so yeah haha. ttyl! ♥ ya!
♥Lyssa

Me and Dominic at the restaurant


We found a cool dead tree lol