Day 2: Fear

Day 2: Describe 5 legitimate fears you have and how they became fears

1. Needles. Specifically needles in doctors offices. I wasn't terribly afraid of them until sometime towards the beginning of high school. I just don't like the idea of a foreign object going into my skin and I don't like how it feels when it is in my skin. When I go to dentist or doctors offices and see the case of them sitting attached to the wall my whole body reacts and goes numb in a very odd way. Its good I don't have tons of medical problems that require surgeries because I would be having constant anxiety attacks.

2. Bees. I think this kind of goes with my fear of needles. I don't like bees because they can sting and when they sting they put their stinger inside of your skin. I guess I just don't like the idea of foreign objects going into my skin period. When I was younger and got stung for the first time it hurt so bad and I didn't even do anything to the stupid bee to provoke it. Every time I have been stung I haven't done anything to the bee. Ever since then, I have been terrified. I see a bee and run the other way regardless of whether or not it is paying any attention to me. One question I have for God in the afterlife for sure. Why are bees necessary?

3.Spiders. I really don't know how this became a fear of mine I just know that I hate them. They just seem so unnatural with their 8 legs, multiple eyes and their ability to run really fast. When there is a spider, I don't care how big it is. I always enlist the help of my someone around me to kill it.

4. Public speaking. Public anything rather. I hate doing things in front of other people with them all staring at me. Speaking in church, sometimes even answering a question in class it just fills me with dread. I think I have been able to trace this back to the 5th grade. In the 5th grade we did a play. Everyone was required to try out and I was actually really excited to be in a play because I had never been in one before. I tried out about 10 other kids and I were put on stage crew. We didn't even get to be chorus people or just random people in the background! All my friends got parts and I didn't. From then on I have never been able to do anything in front of people.

5. Heights. I just hate that feeling of falling and I associate heights with falling. If I get up super high my adrenaline will kick in and my body will start preparing for the fall. It almost makes me sick. I have no idea how this fear came to be I just kind of noticed it one day.