10.22.2010 {learning a lot}

Well just so you all know, I have not dropped off the face of the planet. I havent updated in forever cause I have tons of pics to post and the computer with all the pics on it is being really slow and its not worth dealing with. So I'm not even gonna recap about life lately I'll just do that later. I kinda just wanna talk about stuff I've learned lately ya know?

Things #1: I have the greatest friends and family

Lately I have been spending a lot of time with my mom. I go to school in the morning and end at like 11 or 12 (depending on the day) so when I get home my mom always has errands to run and she always asks me if I wanna come. I really enjoy these moments. I know that I am more fortunate than other girls because of this. My mom (and dad) have taught me so much. I dont tell them this cause I dont wanna seem mushy haha. My friends are just awesome. This week has been kind of hard and I havent really told anyone about whats going on cause it doesnt even involve me at all but this week I've gotten texts from people just to say hi. Even the people in some of my classes have been really nice and fun to talk to this week which has helped a lot :)

Thing #2: I dont need a boyfriend to be happy

People all over the place are getting boyfriends, getting married, getting engaged etc. and its just kind of made me feel like "okay whats wrong with me?" sort of thing. After doing a lot of thinking I have realized I dont need a boyfriend right now to be happy. I would love to have someone to share things with but thats why I have the friends that I have. I have realized I am not your typical girl. I will stand up for what I believe in, I dont take crap from people and I am not easily manipulated. Because of this I probably come of as a little intimidating but I would rather just be myself and have someone like me for who I am. I see absolutely no point in pretending to be someone you are not just to make someone else fall for you. In the end you just get someone who thinks you are one thing but then when you show who you really are they may not like it and leave you. Its not worth the pain. One day I will find the man that I am supposed to be with and he will like me for who I am and be able to handle the intensity of my personality.

Thing #3: No matter what you have done, Christ will always take you back

I havent really learned this lately from myself but from others. I have always known that this is true but it wasnt until this week when I was explaining it to someone else that I finally came to BELIEVE it. No one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes and everyone can repent and come back to Christ. He is always waiting for you no matter what. "No matter your past, your future is spotless."

Thing #4: Try new things

I'm a scaredy cat. I'm shy and its ridiculously bad. For the past few weeks I've been doing a few new things. I am a perfectionist so trying new things is always a daunting task for me mainly because I am afraid of failure. But in the end you dont want to regret not doing something. Right?

and finally....

Thing #5: Its okay to open up

I try to keep my emotions under wraps because my whole life I have been the strong one in my family and my friends. I dont really have anyone to vent to since I'm the listener of everyone I come in contact with, even people I barely meet will start telling me their life story. So it just gets bottled up and then explodes later over something really stupid. Letting emotions out is not a sign of weakness. It is actually a sign of strength because you have been strong for so long. Open up to people, if they judge you then thats their problem not yours.

Well those are my recent lessons of life for ya!

♥Lyssa